Part Trois...

Here we go again...Today, I don't know if I could do ten because my head is a little foggy and honestly, I'm just afraid of what will come out of 'mouth'.  So...it may be the light version.  Will see at the end now, won't we?

'I can't leave you alone, you got me feenin'.  Got me going crazy!!!'   Take that anyway you want to ...

I was watching BIRTH last night and I am very sure of this now...I HATE when they do not tell you how the movie ACTUALLY ends!!!  I do not want to think of all the different scenarios.  I want to know what happens.   I do not want to have to think about it.  My mind can make up things that you wouldn't even think of...

I jump to conclusions...I get myself in trouble all the time.  If you are not clear with me,  I will definitely choose the worse option/meaning of what you said.  I will obsess over it, wonder what you meant by that.  But I do not USUALLY  ask you...I keep it all to myself until the next time I hear something and then have to compare it to the other comment.  It's very tiring...*Actually it's only for people I care about...if I don't, then I don't really give a crap what you're saying or thinking*

I really, really miss smoking.  I quit when I was pregnant with Tyson.  I've had a couple here and there.  It's worse when I am in a bar or drinking with smokers and they are all smoking in front of me.  I can't concentrate on what's going on around me because I am staring at your cigarette  and fighting with myself that I do not NEED to smoke.  If you watch me at these moment you would think I was a f**ktard because of my expressions.

I cannot fake a compliment...I have seen some homely babies and the words 'oh, he/she is so cute!'  just would not, could not  come out of me!!  If you do not hear me compliment something that means I do not like it.  I also do not like getting complimented because I think most of them are not honest.  I will accept an insult a lot more quickly!   So if you hear me compliment you then you know I think it's/you are da bomb!!

There's days when I wish I could just run away.  I just get overwhelmed and I wish I could be alone.   I will look at my kids and wonder what it would be like without them.   I don't regret having them,  shit, I had them even though it could have killed me or them.  I just wished I had them later.   I had so many things I wanted to do and I am wondering if I would have finished it already...If any of you tell my kids this I will hunt you down and kill you!  I have a good lawyer, he'll get me off on the insanity factor alone.

I have very vivid thoughts of ACTUALLY killing people.  People get me SO ANGRY!!!!!!  I wouldn't do it but I am pretty sure I can get away with it...I have though of all the minor details.   That would make it premeditated, wouldn't it?   Damn...well, does it count that I'm a very passionate person.   You know, so it's a crime of passion?!!!

I have stolen boyfriends...Ugh, I know, I know!   I don't want to hear it... I was young, that's my excuse.   Also on more than one occasion,  a friend would tell me they liked a guy, I go to try to hook them up and I end up with the guy.   That I do not do on purpose...it just happens.   Blah!   Ok, this one doesn't make me feel so hot about disclosing it to you all...

I'm starting to feel I may be the ugly friend the wingman has to keep entertained.   I don't know why I just wrote that...

Ok, for the biggie that I really shouldn't be telling anyone:

When I was 10 my parents left me at home (this was normal back then, so don't cry abuse!)  by myself for a few hours.   10 was when I turned into a 'woman'...I got my bra, no not a training one.  I got my period  (ever so sorry, gentlemen)  and I figure this must be the time to start shaving.

I went and bought those pink Bics got butt naked in the middle of the living room and started shaving.  (ok, I had no idea what shaving was like because my mom was not hairy at all and as with most filipinas, if they need to get rid of hair they will PLUCK it!!!)  Yes, without shaving cream!!!  So totally bone dry, butt naked  I started on my legs.  But I just couldn't stop there.   There was hair everywhere, you know?  I'm not a big fan of hair other than your head.  No, not even facial hair...I don't like it at all.

Ok, I'm starting to wander here...back to the story!  So the short version is... I gave the whole body the once over.  Decided that it was just too hairy for my own liking and proceed to shave it.  ALL.   Except my head, of course.  Though I think I did get a hold of the tweezers for the eyebrows.    So yeah, dry shaved the arms, pits, legs, the huha and damn it, why not the stomach too!!  I'm sure those shadows are hair...

Just to show you how hairy I am...I can go a month without shaving my legs (I said I could, not I DO!)  and people wouldn't be able to tell unless they touched my leg and even then it's a patch here and there...

There!  Aren't you glad you know that now?!

Ok, so I am open and ready to listen to some deep dark secrets...I got some good ones last week!!

Have a great Sunday All!  I have to get this Malibu and Pineapple haze taken care of...

Go to Doug's to get your graf art fix!

Oh Crap!!!  Before I forget,  TONIGHT is FISH FIGHT NIGHT!!!!!  You have to nudge Moxie...or just go to her Space here and follow her directions.  DON'T MISS IT!!!  Remember 8:30pm EST,  go figure it out for yourself...

I'm going early...I'm hoping for some free Tek and Mox porn...LMAO!!  Hey!  That was another free confession...

*Update...Ugh!  I missed Fight night cause I had to leave the house for a while!!!  Anyone, everyone fill me in!!!

Where the hell are your confessions?!!!!!